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esok saya akan berangkat pulang ke rumah tumpah darah tercinta. kepulangan ini adalah untuk satu tempoh yang agak panjang. di mana kemungkinan untuk bersiaran di udara adalah tipis.

jadi, kebarangkalian nya adalah tinggi bahawasanya belog ini tidak akan dikemaskini selama saya berada di republik itu. jumpa lagi di 2010 nanti.

wish all of you to have a joyous holiday.

i'll surely have one.

:).

stay safe and aramaite!

Seminggu sekali.

pernah dengar lagu Senggol Senggolan Cubit Cubitan oleh Mas Idayu tak?

Seminggu sekali kau datang padaku
Membawa cinta yang suci (Amboi amboi enak... 2X)
Seminggu sekali ku dimanja-manja
Dan disayang-sayang dirimu (Amboi amboi enak... 2X)


amboi amboi.. best nya dapat jumpa cewek seminggu sekali kan? tapi aku bukan nak cerita pasal cewek. ni nak cite pasal rutin mingguan.

every week, baby ku mesti mahu di mandi, di sabun, di gosok, di lap-lap.

last week i went to a camping at a campsite di Sg. Udin, i drove my baby there and it took us 20-25 mins driving on grabble and bertanah merah road.

guess how did my baby look like?

ha.. hamik ko! kete sape la ni???

heh heh.



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pulang je dari camping on the sunday evening, walaupun kepenatan tido atas lantai tidak bertilam selama 3 malam, driving pun ala-ala high, mata lalok dah hampir tertutup, i drove her to the nearest car wash. she needs a full blast clean up.


bak kata iklan, tambahkan vanish dalam setiap cucian! :p

p/s: picas di sg udin tidak dapat di paparkan di sini disebabkan kerosakan memory card handphone untuk membaca nya. ataupun mungkin tuan punya handphone sengaja meng-delete. sebab terlalu ghairah mengguna handphone orang menye-nap gambar. lol~

Kepuasan pelanggan.

demi kepuasan pelanggan yang kerap mengunjungi Chambre de Thoughts, jamulah mata anda dengan picas di bawah.
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kan malam warna-warni.

wajib la i vip kan.. :p

ini lah masalah besar bila berkaca mata. mahu melaram sket pun masalah. this was my lense that had been taken out from my eyes. the right eye to be exact. sangat sakit mata ku. natijahnya, tong sampah la jawab nya.

eventually, i survived the night with one eye only. walaupun agak berpinar-pinar mata oleh sinaran lampu. kira buta sebelah je la malam tu. hihi

my first ever yellow handbag. i love it heaps. ada jugak tali panjang jika mahu di buat as shoulder bag or sling bag. and the price? ehem ehem. o.56 % from my overall monthly pay.

berbaloi-baloi.

sebenarnya malam mereka. cikgu-cikgi pulak melaram lebih-lebih.

hihi.

all the best in the SPM kids!

Malam Warna-Warni.

The theme for the dinner is warna-warni. So i came out with:

• striking pink and greenish baju kurung moden with pink tudung
• silver peep-toe *killing heel
• super yellow tote

i'm so blend~

Tawau Cuisine.

Introducing to you,

Drum roll.............

this is the famous Tawau's NASI LALAP. consists of nasi putih + ayam goreng + sayur celur + tempe goreng + sambal 'merangsang' + sup kosong. hotness ok.

Last night was my first time to eat it.

actually, kesedapan NASI LALAP bergantung kepada sup dan sambal nya. when we were ordering last night, the half men and women waiter said to us, " sambal nye merangsang tau.."

auw you!

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okeh. selesai... sedap rupanya.
alhamdulillah. erk!

inComplete.

the things that complete me.

bangun pagi-pagi rasa tak kan lengkap hidup if i don't get myself the Wrigley's Eclipse mints. i love the blue pack. it came out with 3 perisa with different packaging color. this blue, dark blue and green. i've tasted all types and i always love this one.the green one tastes like ubat gigi Darlie. hehe. and the dark blue tastes like mmm.. can't describe it. this blue packing is the best hokkay.

the price is about Rm6.00 and i once bought it at the price of RM6.90 at KLIA. (kalau tak silap)

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Dentyne - mesti diambil everytime after i have my lunch. and dinner. and breakfast. usually, i have this mints and chewing gum during the day. it really boost my confidence to speak with people. you know right, teachers always deal with people. namely students.

harga nya hanya lah RM1.20. di twu.

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and that is my new lipstick that i recently bought at Guardian pharmacy. i am crazy over lipstick. read my lips -C R A Z Y- jarang sangat lah saya ke Guardian or Watson or any drugstore tanpa membeli satu lipstick atau lip balm. i don't really wear it actually. only for collection. i love to collect lipsticks and lip balms.

so now you know what's the suitable pressie for me that will never fail to make me smile.

i love to collect lipsticks~

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this is another thing that complete my day. i have a very oily skin. you better believe me. i will use 2 sheets each time i use it and the sheets selalunya penuh dgn minyak. dari muka. luckily i don't have pimple problem on my face. :)

it's not pricy too. di mana-mana pharmacy pun ada dijual.

and today i feel incomplete because i can't have my mints as usual. sebab nya hari ini saya puasa.

Puasa yang yok.

konon nya hari ni nak puasa. ada lagi 4 hari kene ganti. tapi bangun pagi pagi dah teguk air sejuk. macam mana ni? lepas assembly pagi tadi terasa nak makan nasi kuning kak neng.

fuhh. dapat jugak.

masa mula-mula datang tawau agak ter-teruja la tengok nasi kuning. "eh, kt semenanjung takde pun nasi begini?"

macam jakun rasa. huhu.

sekali rasa nasi kuning yang version kak neng bawak, memang fullemek kaww punye. ikan lada pedas ala sardin, telur rebus dikerat 4, ada sambal macam kerisik (nyiur). meleleh... harga pulak RM1.80. memang poket tak kan sakit walopun makan hari-hari. tetapi lemak di badan mungkin akan tercabar. haha.

konon nya nak puasa lah. puasa yang yok. hihi.

Touch their heart if you can.

End of the year 2008.

i finally finished my 5 1/2 years course and by end of december i got posted to a state which is very far from my hometown. when i first received the news, i cried. i cried a lot. i don't expect that i will be posted to that state. it is far. everyone knows that. but i know as a newbies, i can't be choosy. i chose this career although not full-heartedly. it's my parent who decided that for me indeed. so, i go.

Early 2009.

i came here, to a new state- by aeroplane if i must tell you. a very new place for me, a very strange place with new people, new dialect, new language. everything was fresh and new for me. thank to Allah. as me being me, i adapt very well here. i adjusted myself in a quite short time. mak pun pernah cakap, "kakda ni, buang kat padang pasir pun bleh hidup." they trusted me and with their prayers i adapt myself very well.

i came to this school as a new teacher. i don't have confidence at first. i realise that i don't have enough knowledge to teach the children. my students are not small children. they are big kids. being sent to a Technic school i realize that i will be teaching upper form of secondary school- Form 4 and Form 5. during my previous practicum, i taught Form 1 and Form 2 class. thus, it's quite awkward for me at first when i first entered the class. how should i treat them? how can i be close to them? how can i make them cooperate with me? how should i make them to want to learn?

a lot of questions was playing in my head at that time. as time goes, i suited myself with the classes that i teach. there were hard times with them. there were times when i felt like not entering the class at all. there were times when these kids really test my patience. there were times when i felt very frustrating with their responses in class. there were times when i didn't do any preparation before entering the clas. there were times when i felt like giving up everything and not teaching anything. those were difficult times.

there were times when i felt in love with them. the innocent kids who sometimes make you feel like screaming outloud, they did utter words which sometimes melt my heart away. i am very lucky to have sm. in the earlier months, i always have problem with this one class. everytime i have class with them, i will call sm. first. i always said this, "macam malas je nk masuk.. seriously, sd. takde mood langsung nak masuk kelas derang. bukan derang nk belajar pun b. penat tau sd. duk jerit2 dlm kelas.. sometimes, when i brought teaching aids, derang bukan nk peduli pun.. give up dah sd. b..." his respond was, "be their friend syg. touch their heart.."

it is not easy. there were times when i felt like bursting into tears in front of the class.

End of 2009.

now, it's nearing the end of the year. time flies very fast indeed. it's almost a year that i reside here in twu, sabah. negeri di bawah bayu. who would expect that i will have this opportunity to work here, live here for how long more i also don't know. it's almost i year that i teach 4 classes of Form 4 students at this Technic school. i was appointed with quite a number of posts in this school. so far i think i can manage it. if i need to say thank you for this year, i have a very long list to thank to.

it's also the end for me teaching the classes that i taught. i have this heavy feeling to let them go. i would love to continue teaching the same class next year. for their SPM exam. however, i believe it is the tradition of this school to not allow new teachers to teach SPM kids. also, i am not fully confident with myself to teach them.

when i started teaching this year, i dont expect that i will be able to move their heart. because in my case, there was only one teacher who motivates me so much. i don't expect me to have that power too. i call it 'power' because you will need a lot of guts to touch people's heart.

in the paper 1 of Form 4 final exam, one of the questions of continuosu writing is Dreams. many students answered that i believe. and what did touch my heart are these:

"..... i want to be a teacher like Teacher H****syahida. i enjoy with she teaching me.
i can understand all, and now my english subject more better than before this....

".... i think all the person have a dream like me, but when the person not have a dream they not how to go to your future. like my teacher H****syahida she have a dream. she not smart in english but today she teach me english and when she teach me i very like and fast i understand what she teach me...."

"..... after months, i have a letter from my father, he said i received study in New Zealand.."

it touched my heart when reading this. i did told them the story about my difficult journey in learning english and how i got the chance to study oversea and stuff.

i am so glad that it's me that bring this small change to these students. it means a LOT to me.

Alhamdulillah.