My babies and baju raya.

This year will be a more joyous Eid for my little family. My boy is now happily cruising with his two foot, exploring every inch of the house. What makes me curious is he loves to slip himself in a tiny narrow place such as between tv cabinet and the wall or behind our bed in the room. Obviously he can't fit into that space, he will struggle hard to fit into and will always cry if he can't. Phew.. I dont understand why...

He don't crawl at all nowadays. In fact he wouldn't stop walking and walking and walking which makes me wonder, does he fell tired at all? He don't apparently. He only stops walking when he sleeps. And only during that 1 - 2 hours i can do my work at home and in the kitchen. Without any disturbance.

From my readings, i get to know that baby grasps information like sponge. So basically since he was a small baby i introduce and talk to him about many different words- things that we do and things that he can see. Now he seems to understand few directions and sentences that i always utter to him for example ; sit down, let me help you, good bye, give me a kiss, drink some water, do you want shushu?, cookies, book, ball, stand up and walk, lets wash, lets change, lets go, let me feed you, give mummy, clap.

Since he loves listening to the song 'Hello', he knows that waving means hello which sometimes i think he got confused with goodbye. Hmmp. Its okay baby, you will learn it later on.

And now we are familiarizing him with 'Amin' which is shake hands. You know its very important since the eid is coming soon and he needs to master that so uncles and unties will give him green envelope. hehe.

We have bought baju raya for him and the husband too. The same pattern and colours. We bought them when we were hometown back in June- hoping that it will still fit Muizz by the time we got back for raya.

We got it from the boutique above. 

Actually they have family collection. But after trying the kurung i don't think its worth the price. Therefore, i decided to not buy any baju raya for me this year and just wear what i already have. My husband was so shocked listening to that because he knows how much i love shopping hehehe. 

For this upcoming raya i have no new baju raya but basically i have sewn quite a number of kurungs for me this year around, so i will just wear that at home since nobody at home has ever seen me in it. It will be new baju too. ;)

Of raya post.

Im playing spider solitaire on my laptop since i thumbed in this morning. And i've never won once. sigh.

The staffroom is now already quite. You may heard the sound of pin dropped i think. What's left now is me with another few colleagues. Everyone is now boarding the plane heading hometown for raya. Instead, there are some of them who left as early as yesterday. Hmmm.

The school is now really quite. Most of the students are also heading home, taking their own long leave. Some of them have already left the hostel last weekend since the water-crisis that we have. Basically we always have water-crisis here. It always always happened. But we never complained like some people do on the news- the television. 

I dont understand why some people make it such a huge matter because water crisis is happening everywhere for god sake. For me, they are really trying hard to condemn the current ruler; so hard. I rarely watch news on tv these days because they are telling and reporting the same things over and over again. Hello. We have brains to think about it. We dont need frequent repetition of what's good and bad in certain matters.

Obviously we got your point.

Can we move on to the more prominent news such as crimes and world issue. Here, we have the water-crisis since years ago! Tak pernah masuk tibi pun?

Back to my story. Actually im so bored and playing game is not my thing. All my friends are and already heading hometown and im still here. 

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This year for the second time im celebrating Aidiladha with my small family. The three of us. I wish we can go home and celebrate with the whole family but my husband refused to due to several reasons.

No. 1: It was a short holiday and we dont want to drag our baby on 4 different planes in 4 days worrying that it will make him tired etc.

No 2: We shouldn't add more cuti on our yearly report since if we go back we might need to apply for MC's  because husband's cousin is getting married. Kalau dah balik, of course we have to attend the wedding right.

So, we are staying and celebrating with whoever are here. Which i think quite a few. I planned to cook my mum's delish nasi minyak like i did last year but this year with chicken curry. Wish it will turn out good. Yesterday i bought fresh squids and today im going to grill it and do percik. And do some air asam to dip. Yummy. I may fetch Muizz earlier this afternoon.

I miss him already but thumbed out time is 4 pm. How now brown cow?

Im here wishing a prosperous, delightful and enjoyable raya for everyone who is celebrating with family and friends. Be good and careful on road. For those who do qurban, hats off on you wishing that your qurban will be your ride to jannah in hereafter. Lets pray that our friends who are now in Makkah performing hajj- praying that their hajj will be accepted and no bad accidents will occur overthere.

I cant wait for the next Thurdays because my family is coming here. Hurrah!

Open house with Muizz.

At my school. Husband got sekolah ganti so not able to join us. Suka lah Muizz ramai yang dukung die. Mummy lagi suka hati boleh makan banyak dan senang hati macam orang takde anak hehe. Adalah dalam 3 kali trip ke meja amik makanan.

Makanan banyak dan sedap-sedap. Tapi suasana agak hambar. Take the food, duduk dalam kelompok kawan-kawan, eat sambil dengar lagu raya. And the worst part is, masih awal lagi, a group of 'guest' (all guests are teachers and school's stuff) dah mula packing makanan put into plactic bags. For me, that was not a good view to see since people are still eating and they may have few trips to tambah the food ehem-ehem. And i think there are few guests who are still not coming. 

Once people start packing food, semua pun berduyyun lah packing jugak. Bertungkus-lumus. I sempat ambil nasi tomato and 2 pieces of ayam merah for husband. Cukup-cukup je lah ambil, kenapa nak ambil banyak. Nanti membazir je. Also i packed home sate yang tak sempat nak habiskan. Then, kemas-kemas balik.

Hmmm. Hambar sangat.

The last photo is Muizz with his nanny-day-care. hehe. She is the wife of one of the teachers at school.

A victory to celebrate.

Dumm damm dumm damm!!!

Kuatnya bunyi mercun dan bunga api usainya iftar.Ini lah kemeriahan beraya di kampung. Malam raya tak pernah senyap. Bila dah kuat sangat, bunyi yang berdas-das, jenguk through jendela tengok ke langit. Cantik nya bunga api. Tak tahu berapa ratus das la tu. Semua pun mau main. Berlawan-lawan kuatnya.Tiap kali bunyi mercun, mata terus tengok ke arah muizz yang nyenyak tido dalam buai. Jangan la sampai terbangun. Kalau tak, takde la jadi kek span dan kek pelangi malam ni.

Esok raya!

Lain rasanya raya dulu dan sekarang. Masa kecik-kecik dahulu eager sangat nak raya, nak habiskan puasa. Fasting seems like a burden- cant eat and drink during the day. But now, bila syawal menjelang, sayu sangat hati. Adakah akan sampai ke ramadhan seterusnya?

Im still not well- still having engorged breast. Macam fobia rasa esok nak raya and have to wear bra in order to wear baju baru. It really hurts. It was worst yesterday when both breast were engorged. Malam tak boleh tido. Kesian to muizz menangis mahu susu but i cant bear the pain anymore. So terpaksa opt to formula milk. Alhamdulillah die minum. But at night he used to feed directly from me. So it was so sad hearing him crying refused for bottle; mahu jugak breastfeeding. Hmm.

Alhamdulillah, by noon today the lump on the right breast surut and completely gone. I can feed him directly. Finally. But the left ones is still engorged. Sangat keras and i can feel the lump is very big. Almost fills the whole breast. Furthermore, my baby refused to nurse on the left side. Pelik kenapa die tak nak. Sampai menangis teresak-esak when i hold him like im going to nurse him from my left breast. Owh my!

Hopefully it will be gone before i fly to Sabah.

Ramadhan is now over and tomorrow all muslim in Malaysia is going to celebrate Aidulfitri. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for giving me this chance to taste your ramadhan barakah and insyaAllah tomorrow celebrating raya. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for giving me a joyful family, a beautiful baby boy, satu amanah yang tidak terhingga. Semoga ramadhan dan syawal ini bukan lah ynag terakhir bagiku Ya Allah.

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir batin. Rayakanlah kemenangan ini denagn bersederhana.

Welcome Ramadhan 2012.

This time, Ramadhan seems to come earlier than expected. Macam cepat je masa berlalu especially for me who's doing nothing at home. Well, enjoying my time-fully. 

Basically i spend 24-7 of my time looking after my Muizz. It was fun and challenging at the same time; getting to know him, his needs, what to do when he cries, how frequent to feed him or change the diapers and such.

There are times when i felt really hopeless when he cries and cries non-stop but he's well fed and clean... Well, at those times i wish he can speak out what he felt (lol). With my husband far away from me, i'm very lucky to have my mak with me. She's such a professional in dealing with babies i tell you.

Last year's Ramadhan, i spent little time with my other half. Sama jugak tahun ni. He will be in Sabah alone and i'll still be at home. Very sad i know. But, what i see is, this is a small challenge and sacrifice that we must do to enjoy years of years of Ramadhan and other months together next. He'll be home celebrating the Ramadhan btw. That's quite a good news.

Im not able to fast- celebrating Ramadhan this year, but i may be able to, after half way of it. Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan barakah to all muslimin and muslimat. Semoga amalan kita semua diterima dan diberkati Allah swt.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, for giving me another chance to taste the sweetness of Ramadhan kareem.

The 28th June.

Waking up on my birthday with my boy comfortably snuggle up beside me and a lovely lengthy text from beloved husband, im in bliss.

I couldnt ask for more, except for husband to be here with me too.

On my 27th birthday, all i can say is Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for blessing me with wonderful gifts not everyone could have it.

Happy 1st anniversary to my marriage!!!

This was our simple dinner on the 28th May 2012 at a random gerai di Padang Bas Jerteh. My nasi goreng paprik was not that paprik. Mine was better i think. And husband didnt finish his nasi goreng that night. Lucky for me- i finished them all. Well, i was 2 people that time. lol.

Tq husband for allowing me to have the last yummy cheesecake that night.

Tq husband for always be there for me, no matter how.

Tq husband for ALWAYS be patience with me.

I love you baby. More than you do.

For more wonderful years with you and our kid (s).

A long wishes to my only one.

I’ve never met someone who loves me that much that you do
Who always bear with whatever I do
Who always be there for me
Although sometimes I can handle by myself
You, the one who’ve never complain even I break your heart
Many times

I want to apologize from you
For whatever mistakes I’ve done
For all the sins I’ve made that you hold alone
For not able to cook for you and iron your clothes for work
For not always be your bed-company
For not being the best whenever you need me
For always moody when yo u really need me
For sleeping too long that you can’t call me
For making you worry not answering your call
For always daydreaming and not focusing on you while we speaking

For all the love, care and attention you shower me
I know you love me so much
Thank you sayang for every single thing that you do
Because I know that every single thing you do
Is because of me

For our bright and colourful future together
I promise to always stay by your side
And be strong
As I know the feelings that we have
Is totally unbreakable

On the 27th year-day you are on this earth

I am glad to admit

That i am so incredibly lucky

To have you as my life partner

Happy 27 birthday bb.

First step.

Alhamdulillah. Finally i am able to access the egtukar. After heaps of call in and call out.

TQ Allah. You heard our prayer. Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan selepas ini.

A day at the airport.

Travelled home for raya. it was a very long day for both of us. The journey started at KK airport at 9 am and we finally reached home in Besut at 10.30 pm. It's a long day really. Bumped into Hafiz and family at KLIA. First time jumpa Alisa. Not Expected. We gonna have a short raya this year, but a slong as we have each other, so no probs.

Gambar yang tunjuk jari tu nak tunjuk inai masih ada on the 3rd month of our wedding day! It's been 3 whole months. Seriously how time flies so fast. =)

Btw, Selamat menyambut hari raya Aidilfitri buat semua. Pohon maaf semua salah dan silap semoga semuanya bergembira.

Muah~

The usual trip.

Ayah's flight to madinah was at 3pm. He will be there until 27th August and will be home on the 28th. It was a usual trip for him since he never miss going umrah since i don't really sure perhaps when i was 14 years old.

This time ayah pergi sendiri- bukan dengan travel agent or any package offered in the market. Semua diuruskan sendiri. His hotels and food overthere was managed by his friend who is already there. So, when i asked him on the phone this morning, "Bila ayah pergi Mekah?"His answer was, "Tak tahu lagi. Ikut suka ayah la bila nak pergi. Maybe after 2 hari spend in Madinah kut..."

Ok. very ayah-type ;).

And from his voice i know that he is enjoying this and this is the thing that he always waits for everytime Ramadan comes. Ayah will be fasting 19 hours today because of the time different. Pray that he will be alright and knowing him a very strong man, i know he can make it. Safe journey ayah pegi dan balik.

Nak dijadikan cerita, i totally forgot that ayah's trip was today!!!

Bila mak call at 8.30 this morning baru lah teringat. Then we laughed outloud together (owh gosh i miss mak), because mak also terlupa to call me and reminds me about today. She only remembered it lepas ayah dah boarded flight to KL. haha. Ramai sangat anak, sampai ada yang di lupa.

I reached home from KK late last night. Stopping for some drink make it latter than usual. It was a beautiful experience to be able to go to pasar, cook together with the boyfriend, sahur together. Bliss. It was our first time for ramadan.

This was the picture when we went to bazar Ramadan at Lok Kawi. The first time i feel like buying all the food sold. They have not many choices but basically, semenanjung food are there like nasi tomato, murtabak, nasi kerabu, ayam percik, all sorts of lauks and omaigod whatelse. I felt like buying everything!!

Fyi, if you've used to bazar ramadan in semenanjung like KL or Trg and Kel, there will be no hope you find the bazar in Sabah satisfying. i always went home empty-handed last 2 years i've been here. For the record, i've only been once to the bazar this year. Seriously, nothing much.

On Sunday, we went to KK and people were buzzing away like it was not a fasting month. Luckily we finished our raya shopping last week, so we basically just jalan-jalan this time.

And for iftar we have 5 lauks!!! @ Kak Nong! at the Harbour City.

The next trip will be this weekend. He's coming to my place. And then the next week, we are going home to Raya!!! How fast time flies kan?

I laike~

Once upon a time,

on sunday. Bangun pagi-pagi terus teringat Mcd. Best nye bleh breakfast Mcd ni. owh. Terus mandi get dressed and zoomed to airport.

Yesza! Breakfast di Mcd u'olls. Burpp Alhamdulillah.

Because this was a sunday morning, so we terus ke Gaya Street. Tamu Gaya Steet ni glemor la among people who live in KK dan jugak ramai tourist. I pun tourist kan? :p

Tak sah kalau gi pasar tak beli gula kapas. Siap duduk di kaki lima depan bank apa ntah. Keletihan dan kepanasan. KK sanagt sesak on that day. Maybe because it's a day before Muslims fasting month. So basically, we walked a lot that day. We parked the car at Plaza Warisan (if im not mistaken), then we walked to the ever famous Pasar Filipin and Plaza Rakyat (?). A very long journey and scorching hot sun.

The boyfriend yang suka pakai baju sama.

Jalan-jalan sekitar KK. Tobat lah tak akan buat lagi lepas ni.

Selamat berpuasa semua. Sama-sama kita muliakan Ramadhan dan rayakan Aidilfitri nanti. Selamat bersahur, berpuasa, berbuka dan berterawih.

Hati berlagu rindu.

ok. tajuk tak bleh blah. :p

Sebenarnya entry ini to mark up our 2 months anniversary as a couple. Tapi disebabkan masalah teknikal iaitu lambat bayar bil broadband, jadi talian sangat la seeelllooow.

Inai masih lagi ada di kuku. hopefully by 3 months anniversary it's still there. 2 months being a wife, i've been a lot stronger than i used to be. im now able to smile widely, i mean with all my heart. Memang rindu, tetapi makin hari makin boleh di tahan.

How i wish the time flies so fast and 2012 comes. But deep down inside, selalu tertanya-tanya: "Macam mana kalau tak dapat pindah?"

:(

Footnote: This was supposed to be a happy entry. lol.

Something new.

1) new in my shopping list. Im not sure when i'll get it. But i'll surely get it sooner or later. ;). Want to know how it smell, go and figure out. You will surely like it if you are soft (haha) like me. Google it and the result is this:

.....Fresh floral fruity

A new enchanting designer perfume that blends temptation, femininity and modernity. A fragrance with a sparkling and spontaneous flight that blossoms into a juicy and caramelised middle note. A soft and delicate breath of seduction provided by the silky and reassuring embrace of light woods. The fragrance of temptation.....

2) New on my tiny bookshelf. Im never a fan of male author except for Nicholas Sparks who makes me menangis teresak-esak with 'Message in the bottle'. So why did i bought it? Because of the great review from Sophie Kinsela. haha. How obsess i am with her kan? lol.

And this is the review i got from here:

....I really enjoyed this book. Matt is wonderful at writing and giving us girls an insight into a man’s mind, especially when it comes to such things as relationship and wedding days. This book had me laughing at so many points, particularly with Dan trying to become a reformed character from the playful womaniser to a man who only wants to be loved and wants to get back together with Polly, the only woman that made him want to commit. A wonderfully lighthearted and warm read.

I've been reading quite a lot these days since i actually have nothing to do at all. So far ive finished numbers of books which are mine and also borrowed from the school library. The list goes:

1. Veronica decides to die by Paulo Coelho
2. By the river piedra i sat down and wept by Paulo Coelho
3. Sleeping arrangements by Madeleine Wickham
4. The tennis party by Madeleine Wickham

Since im always on the move right now- i travel a lot to and fro KK via flight, therefore i really need a good read during the journey. At least that's the reason i told my husband to always buy new books since i am banned to but new clothes now. haha.

Talking about new, i wear baju baru today. In fact, it is an abaya suit that i wished here. No no. I don't buy it. It's a birthday present from someone who reads my blog!!! Seriously it really surprise me.

Will put up picture soon keh.

Toodles for now.

On the 28th June.

this post was supposed to be aired on the 28th of june.

Telah genap sebulan we got married. Alhamdulillah. life has been good now. we've been separated by distance after 2 weeks we got married. it's a big deal for both of us earlier. but after sometimes we can cope with the situation.

i am good now. indeed i am in good hands now.

tq sr for being here for my birth-day. i'll make sure to be with you on the day you turn 27 nanti.

love~

My birthday wishes.

i am going to be 26 in few more days.

1. lots and lots of wishes. since i have deactivated my facebook acc, so i don't know how i will get the wishes now. :p
2. cupcakes.
3. pen-drive.
4. abaya and matching tudung
5. a dictionary-kind of notebook.

and my self-reward is 26 and faded. been wishing this since i was 18.

26 years i have lived my live OMG. how more long do i have Ya Allah.

The undying love.

I've never been 50 since 17.

Weehu!

I've reached my target of the past 6-7 years!!! I've achieved the every-year resolution as if finally. The last time my weight was with the number 4 in front was maybe when i was 16 years old. If i remembered correctly.

And in fact, my weight is currently doesn't reach 50kg. It is 49. ++ kg.

:D. Happy soul.


p/s: Im overflowing with words. Got my ink to write now. So, beware of everyday's update on this page. Ok.

The Special Eid.

As usual, i woke up on the first Eid (even) with lazy feeling. It's 6.30 in the morning. i sat on my bed thinking "Why do i need to wake up early today.. Can i sleep some more?". Reluctantly, i opened my eyes. Mak's bebelan has been waking me up since 5.30 am. Sometimes i wonder where does she get such energy since she was among the last to sleep last night.

It was like any normal day for me. I woke up, grabbed my tudung and went straight to the sitting room. It's the final check to make sure everything is ready for guest to come later. Nothing special really, except for takbir berkumandang di Radio Kelantan mak sayup-sayup dari dapur.

Wearing new baju kurung also is not a special thing for me. As a teacher, almost every month i buy a new baju kurung. Sometimes it's more than one. This year, we were among the earliest to arrive at the nearby surau. What a shocking fact! After got back from surau, this is the moment (for me) is the special occasion of eid.

We gathered at the sitting room, the whole siblings. And for the record, i have 8 siblings. This year, my sister is celebrating the eid with us, so it's complete set. This is the moment when we queued up to salam and ask forgiveness from my parents especially. This is the moment when tears are easily fall down the cheek. i dont know why, it's just happen. Every year!

We asked forgiveness from each other. Really pouring out what we felt about each other, and we hug tightly.

Yes, it's really a sad but meaningful moment. And for me, although i don't really like the fact that i cried and it ruined my make-up (hehe), but that is always the moment that i wait for each time the eid comes.

That moment makes my eid to be special.

Salam lebaran.

My flight will leave Twu at 1030 tommorrow. Wish all u a good super holiday and Salam lebaran.

Maafkan segala kesilapan saya ye, jika ada terkasar bahasa, terlanjur kata.

Jemput ye datang ke rumah nanti.

:)