i am not happy.

but i am not sad.
i am not crying.
but i cnt laugh.

the parent went for umrah starting today. they left m'sia soil at 3pm (m'sia time) from KLIA to Jeddah. although it's an annual thingy for both of them. but i still feel a bit dejected because for the second time, im not there to wish goodbye for them. for the second time i am not at the airport to hug them tightly before the flew off. (last year was the 1ts time. i was here as well.) i am so not happy about that.

i called them last night. and as usual my mak's voice is a bit shaky while speaking to me. when she said goodbye and take good care of myself. i cnt help my tears to drop. but i must be strong. if not, my mak will be sadder than me. i tried to control my voice. so that she wouldnt hear that i'm crying soundly.
ayah told me to be good. as usual, jaga sembahyang and jgn lupe to recite the holy Quran. i was quiet for 1 moment. i just cnt speak. i was crying my eyes out at the same time i was trying to cover my voice. eergh! so hard. but till the end, they didnt know that im crying. at least i think they dont. i dont want to make them worry of me. (at this time im writing this entry, my tears drop again. T_T)

when they were here last august.

they will be there for about 2 weeks. and they will be back on the 10th of October. it's perhaps 3 days b4 the eid. i cnt send them off at the airport, but i know im always with them. i just pray that everything will go on smoothly for them.

ya Allah, permudahkan lah segala urusan mereka di sana.
ya Allah, selamatkan lah perjalanan mereka pergi dan kembali.
ya Allah, berkatilah dan lidungilah mereka dr sebarang malapetaka.
hanya kepada-Mu aku berserah.
amin. ya. rabbalAlamin.

bye bye mak ayah. doa utk kakda jugak. kakda sayang sgt mak ngan ayah. my prayer is always with both of you. i love you so much. so much!!!

luv~