My first letter for you.

Dear honey,

when i first look at the two lines on the test kit, my heart flip. i know this is the biggest surprise i've received my entire life. i still cant believe it. my body has been reacting wierdly- i've more cravings for food. i must always have the breakfast, full lunch and a complete dinner. all should be full meal, without fail.

i've been itchy the upper part of my body, especially the area between the navel and breast. been having a terrible pain on the shoulder and the back area. a tight cramp around the belly area that i cant laugh too loud or yawn. and the worst of all waking up every morning feeling really weak from the long sleep before like i've been doing the hard labour work all night.

owh my honey. it's all really unbearable.

and this morning when the doctor said 'that's your kantung baby, and yes you are positively pregnant!' when she showed on the screen and i saw you there. a little 2 cm oval shape, at that moment my heart flip again. i was overwhelmed with a feeling that i cant explain.

when i was cooking for your father just now, a wave of nauseous suddenly hit me that i stopped cooking straight away. i'm so hungry yet i dont feel like can swallow anything right now. the nasty nausea is still there honey.

those are all the early signs and symptoms that i feel now. and i know i must be able to get through this because you are mine. and i know you love me too.

i love you honey. and for you i will endure anything, so that you will come to our life healthily.

till then. toddles