Muizz's baby sitter.

Its 2013!

Seems like its another year we'll stay in Sabah and if you ask me what is my resolution this year my answer will be " I hope 2013 will be the last here".

When i knew last year that our transfer applications have been rejected (yet again), i was able to soothe myself because im lucky to have my family here with me- the husband and my son. I have friends at school who were also failed to get the transfer, their husbands and kids are away in peninsular. That's really stress i know. I can't imagine my life without my husband and Muizz.

Im also very lucky to have a lovely and motherly babysitter for Muizz. She's a wife for one of the teachers and a Kelantanese. Furthermore, she loves Muizz so much and i can see that. We always have a good chat everytime i dropped and fetched Muizz at her house. I feel very easy with her. She's like a family that i don't have here.

Now comes a new year, her husband got transferred to Port Dickson! He just got the confirmation yesterday, as in 2 jan.

My heart dropped as i heard the news. Im not yet ready for this. Ive been doing some thinking over this matter because his wife told me that the husband applied for transfer and they also do the rayuan. What if, what if... But im not really worried since pertukaran in BPTV is kind of dibekukan.

But he got the transfer and i'll be left nanny-less in weeks time. At the taman that i live we have a nursery. Im praying hard they will still have one place for Muizz. Im so concern how will Muizz reacts at the new place with new surrounding and strangers. They have many babies and toddlers to cater on. Having said that, how will their attention will be for Muizz. He's such a clingy and crying baby that im worried how will the pengasuh handle my son when he cries.  He's now 6 months and he already recognizes people. He cries really loud with people he doesn't recognize. This happened many times at MIL house recently.

What if there's no more places at the nursery? Where will i send Muizz i have no idea at all.

Im so crashed.

I know Allah give me this challenge for me to stand on my own, find the best solution and remember Allah can make anything happen just as He wants it. Kun fayakun right. And for me, La Tahzan as Allah with people who have patience. Ya Allah please ease my way and pray hard Muizz will behave like a good boy whereever he will be sent to later on. Amin.