Just for the sake of knowing.

i watched this P*ris H*lt0n show the other day and she kept using several abbreviations that yours truly didn't understand. it's quite annoying since i forced myself to watch the show as there was no other good show at that time.

what the hell is " TTYM " ??

i don't really want to know this but everytime i on the tv i will remember the words. furthermore, when i click MTV channel the words keep coming to me.

samala kalau once you think of a title of song that you absolutely knew the tune before contohnya lagu nora- di persimpangan dilema (haha. macam takda contoh lain) and at the moment you forgot it, it's menyakitkan hati jiwa dan raga untuk ingat kembali. owh owh.

it's annoying really.

so help me friends. in case if you know.

it's an acronym for what eh?

We gonna have a party!!!

i am now on a very loooong holiday. well. monday to friday is a long break. including 2 saturdays and 2 sundays lagi.

LUMAYAN BEB.

pagi2 bangun tido bile jam mencecah 11 am. last saturday i woke up at 1 pm. itupun sebab cacing dalam perut sudah bergetas kelaparan. haha.

btw, this coming thursday we gonna have a party. it's for the close 'family' only. others are not invited. :p

owh. tadi hafiz asmah datang ke twu. dari kk dia drive. 'meninggalkan' isterinya yang sedang sarat. apakah?

terlalu banyak 'inverted commas' is used in this entry. ini bukan provokasi ye.

Sssssp.

i just got myself this spray last night. this means that i've started the padang training. maka berpanas lah diri ini bermula hari ini. like last year, im still in charge with handball for the school team this year. the cikgu who supposedly in charge claimed that he needs a break this year. WTF! sayang sangat lemak yang memboncit tu. i suggest u just resign la weh. apa2 pun lets just wait for tindakan that will be taken for him.

well well. i hope this spray will work lah.

indeed i spent almost RM120.00 last night for only Guardian + Watson shopping. oh my!

It's bad.

i've been sneezing non-stop since monday. today is wednesday, so it's almost 3 days. punca nya adalah makan rojak home-made on sunday.

wargh!!!

i've never thought that it will be this worse. and i've never have this experience before. sebelum ni ok je nk makan rojak.

but now, i can't have rojak anymore. as kuah rojak biasanya di tambah dengan BELACAN. itulah punca sebenar.

sudah 2 hari hidung selalu berair, terasa sangat gatal sampai rasa nk potong hidung, rasa nk demam pun ada tapi tak pun. Bila malam, kepala rasa berat, hidung rasa pedih sebab seharian dah menggenyeh dengan tisu, kepenatan melampau.

now aku isytiharkan perang dengan BELACAN!!!

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ok. ok.

BUSY is the new word for 2010.

hang in there sd.

hang in there.

Fuhh.

lama nya cuti!!!

happy new year everyone.

my wish for 2010 is EVERYTHING will be at the right place as i want it to be.

fingers cross.

Offline.

esok saya akan berangkat pulang ke rumah tumpah darah tercinta. kepulangan ini adalah untuk satu tempoh yang agak panjang. di mana kemungkinan untuk bersiaran di udara adalah tipis.

jadi, kebarangkalian nya adalah tinggi bahawasanya belog ini tidak akan dikemaskini selama saya berada di republik itu. jumpa lagi di 2010 nanti.

wish all of you to have a joyous holiday.

i'll surely have one.

:).

stay safe and aramaite!

Seminggu sekali.

pernah dengar lagu Senggol Senggolan Cubit Cubitan oleh Mas Idayu tak?

Seminggu sekali kau datang padaku
Membawa cinta yang suci (Amboi amboi enak... 2X)
Seminggu sekali ku dimanja-manja
Dan disayang-sayang dirimu (Amboi amboi enak... 2X)


amboi amboi.. best nya dapat jumpa cewek seminggu sekali kan? tapi aku bukan nak cerita pasal cewek. ni nak cite pasal rutin mingguan.

every week, baby ku mesti mahu di mandi, di sabun, di gosok, di lap-lap.

last week i went to a camping at a campsite di Sg. Udin, i drove my baby there and it took us 20-25 mins driving on grabble and bertanah merah road.

guess how did my baby look like?

ha.. hamik ko! kete sape la ni???

heh heh.



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pulang je dari camping on the sunday evening, walaupun kepenatan tido atas lantai tidak bertilam selama 3 malam, driving pun ala-ala high, mata lalok dah hampir tertutup, i drove her to the nearest car wash. she needs a full blast clean up.


bak kata iklan, tambahkan vanish dalam setiap cucian! :p

p/s: picas di sg udin tidak dapat di paparkan di sini disebabkan kerosakan memory card handphone untuk membaca nya. ataupun mungkin tuan punya handphone sengaja meng-delete. sebab terlalu ghairah mengguna handphone orang menye-nap gambar. lol~

Kepuasan pelanggan.

demi kepuasan pelanggan yang kerap mengunjungi Chambre de Thoughts, jamulah mata anda dengan picas di bawah.
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kan malam warna-warni.

wajib la i vip kan.. :p

ini lah masalah besar bila berkaca mata. mahu melaram sket pun masalah. this was my lense that had been taken out from my eyes. the right eye to be exact. sangat sakit mata ku. natijahnya, tong sampah la jawab nya.

eventually, i survived the night with one eye only. walaupun agak berpinar-pinar mata oleh sinaran lampu. kira buta sebelah je la malam tu. hihi

my first ever yellow handbag. i love it heaps. ada jugak tali panjang jika mahu di buat as shoulder bag or sling bag. and the price? ehem ehem. o.56 % from my overall monthly pay.

berbaloi-baloi.

sebenarnya malam mereka. cikgu-cikgi pulak melaram lebih-lebih.

hihi.

all the best in the SPM kids!

Malam Warna-Warni.

The theme for the dinner is warna-warni. So i came out with:

• striking pink and greenish baju kurung moden with pink tudung
• silver peep-toe *killing heel
• super yellow tote

i'm so blend~

Tawau Cuisine.

Introducing to you,

Drum roll.............

this is the famous Tawau's NASI LALAP. consists of nasi putih + ayam goreng + sayur celur + tempe goreng + sambal 'merangsang' + sup kosong. hotness ok.

Last night was my first time to eat it.

actually, kesedapan NASI LALAP bergantung kepada sup dan sambal nya. when we were ordering last night, the half men and women waiter said to us, " sambal nye merangsang tau.."

auw you!

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alhamdulillah. erk!

inComplete.

the things that complete me.

bangun pagi-pagi rasa tak kan lengkap hidup if i don't get myself the Wrigley's Eclipse mints. i love the blue pack. it came out with 3 perisa with different packaging color. this blue, dark blue and green. i've tasted all types and i always love this one.the green one tastes like ubat gigi Darlie. hehe. and the dark blue tastes like mmm.. can't describe it. this blue packing is the best hokkay.

the price is about Rm6.00 and i once bought it at the price of RM6.90 at KLIA. (kalau tak silap)

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Dentyne - mesti diambil everytime after i have my lunch. and dinner. and breakfast. usually, i have this mints and chewing gum during the day. it really boost my confidence to speak with people. you know right, teachers always deal with people. namely students.

harga nya hanya lah RM1.20. di twu.

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and that is my new lipstick that i recently bought at Guardian pharmacy. i am crazy over lipstick. read my lips -C R A Z Y- jarang sangat lah saya ke Guardian or Watson or any drugstore tanpa membeli satu lipstick atau lip balm. i don't really wear it actually. only for collection. i love to collect lipsticks and lip balms.

so now you know what's the suitable pressie for me that will never fail to make me smile.

i love to collect lipsticks~

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this is another thing that complete my day. i have a very oily skin. you better believe me. i will use 2 sheets each time i use it and the sheets selalunya penuh dgn minyak. dari muka. luckily i don't have pimple problem on my face. :)

it's not pricy too. di mana-mana pharmacy pun ada dijual.

and today i feel incomplete because i can't have my mints as usual. sebab nya hari ini saya puasa.

Puasa yang yok.

konon nya hari ni nak puasa. ada lagi 4 hari kene ganti. tapi bangun pagi pagi dah teguk air sejuk. macam mana ni? lepas assembly pagi tadi terasa nak makan nasi kuning kak neng.

fuhh. dapat jugak.

masa mula-mula datang tawau agak ter-teruja la tengok nasi kuning. "eh, kt semenanjung takde pun nasi begini?"

macam jakun rasa. huhu.

sekali rasa nasi kuning yang version kak neng bawak, memang fullemek kaww punye. ikan lada pedas ala sardin, telur rebus dikerat 4, ada sambal macam kerisik (nyiur). meleleh... harga pulak RM1.80. memang poket tak kan sakit walopun makan hari-hari. tetapi lemak di badan mungkin akan tercabar. haha.

konon nya nak puasa lah. puasa yang yok. hihi.

Touch their heart if you can.

End of the year 2008.

i finally finished my 5 1/2 years course and by end of december i got posted to a state which is very far from my hometown. when i first received the news, i cried. i cried a lot. i don't expect that i will be posted to that state. it is far. everyone knows that. but i know as a newbies, i can't be choosy. i chose this career although not full-heartedly. it's my parent who decided that for me indeed. so, i go.

Early 2009.

i came here, to a new state- by aeroplane if i must tell you. a very new place for me, a very strange place with new people, new dialect, new language. everything was fresh and new for me. thank to Allah. as me being me, i adapt very well here. i adjusted myself in a quite short time. mak pun pernah cakap, "kakda ni, buang kat padang pasir pun bleh hidup." they trusted me and with their prayers i adapt myself very well.

i came to this school as a new teacher. i don't have confidence at first. i realise that i don't have enough knowledge to teach the children. my students are not small children. they are big kids. being sent to a Technic school i realize that i will be teaching upper form of secondary school- Form 4 and Form 5. during my previous practicum, i taught Form 1 and Form 2 class. thus, it's quite awkward for me at first when i first entered the class. how should i treat them? how can i be close to them? how can i make them cooperate with me? how should i make them to want to learn?

a lot of questions was playing in my head at that time. as time goes, i suited myself with the classes that i teach. there were hard times with them. there were times when i felt like not entering the class at all. there were times when these kids really test my patience. there were times when i felt very frustrating with their responses in class. there were times when i didn't do any preparation before entering the clas. there were times when i felt like giving up everything and not teaching anything. those were difficult times.

there were times when i felt in love with them. the innocent kids who sometimes make you feel like screaming outloud, they did utter words which sometimes melt my heart away. i am very lucky to have sm. in the earlier months, i always have problem with this one class. everytime i have class with them, i will call sm. first. i always said this, "macam malas je nk masuk.. seriously, sd. takde mood langsung nak masuk kelas derang. bukan derang nk belajar pun b. penat tau sd. duk jerit2 dlm kelas.. sometimes, when i brought teaching aids, derang bukan nk peduli pun.. give up dah sd. b..." his respond was, "be their friend syg. touch their heart.."

it is not easy. there were times when i felt like bursting into tears in front of the class.

End of 2009.

now, it's nearing the end of the year. time flies very fast indeed. it's almost a year that i reside here in twu, sabah. negeri di bawah bayu. who would expect that i will have this opportunity to work here, live here for how long more i also don't know. it's almost i year that i teach 4 classes of Form 4 students at this Technic school. i was appointed with quite a number of posts in this school. so far i think i can manage it. if i need to say thank you for this year, i have a very long list to thank to.

it's also the end for me teaching the classes that i taught. i have this heavy feeling to let them go. i would love to continue teaching the same class next year. for their SPM exam. however, i believe it is the tradition of this school to not allow new teachers to teach SPM kids. also, i am not fully confident with myself to teach them.

when i started teaching this year, i dont expect that i will be able to move their heart. because in my case, there was only one teacher who motivates me so much. i don't expect me to have that power too. i call it 'power' because you will need a lot of guts to touch people's heart.

in the paper 1 of Form 4 final exam, one of the questions of continuosu writing is Dreams. many students answered that i believe. and what did touch my heart are these:

"..... i want to be a teacher like Teacher H****syahida. i enjoy with she teaching me.
i can understand all, and now my english subject more better than before this....

".... i think all the person have a dream like me, but when the person not have a dream they not how to go to your future. like my teacher H****syahida she have a dream. she not smart in english but today she teach me english and when she teach me i very like and fast i understand what she teach me...."

"..... after months, i have a letter from my father, he said i received study in New Zealand.."

it touched my heart when reading this. i did told them the story about my difficult journey in learning english and how i got the chance to study oversea and stuff.

i am so glad that it's me that bring this small change to these students. it means a LOT to me.

Alhamdulillah.

Mendung.

it is natural for people to sighing, whining and crying over bad things that happens let say maybe once in 10 months. they will completely forget or ignore the fact that they have been in euphoria happiness for the previous 10 months.

indeed, hujan lebat bersama guruh dentum mendentum yang datang sekali sekala selalu dianggap sebagai satu dugaan yang maha hebatnya.

sesungguhnya Allah menguji hamba yang disayangi nya.

frankly speaking, suasana mendung sekarang pun rasa dah cukup baik.

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sometimes things are better left unsaid.

Its complicated.

sometimes it's difficult to understand man. everyone has job to do and everyone in this world are given 24 hours a day. what i want is only some of your time for me. can't you?

i am not deserved to be treated like this.

susah la.

5 minggu lagi!!!

cepat lah...

woot woot!

A letter from heart.

Dear Aunty,
I have or should i say had a BFF. We have been friend since we were 13 years old and since then we haven't stopped contacting each other. There were times when we don't contact each other for a very long time but i know that we realised, deep down in our heart, we still remember each other, miss each other. During holiday, it's a MUST that we meet each other, spend some time to catch up and update each other. I miss that moment so much. Recently, she announced that she's going to get engaged and get married in couple of coming months. It was a real quick decision she made but that's not the problem. It is her destiny. At that moment, i felt really awkward as my BFF will move on to the next stage of life which is marriage life. I think that i am going to loose a good friend. But I am glad and very happy for her.

After she called me to spill the news, i thought that it was an invitation for me to her engagement event. But not. She said it was a very humble event and only family members will attend it. I was so shocked to hear that. I am her bestfriend if she still remember that.

So, on her day, i waited for her to contact me and tell me where's the place the ceremony will happen and what time. But no news at all. na da.

I was very upset. If it was me i would love to share that moment with the ones that i love including my besties. For her case, i know that I am the only bestie who live around that place.

I am hurt. Deeply hurt by her action. Then, a few days ago she texted me "I will get married on the 3 of Dec. If God will." My reaction after reading her text is " hah. Why do you care to tell me" I did reply with 2 words only "Ok. Congrats."

My plan for her wedding is i will go if she invites me and as only a guest. Not a bestfriend. I am hurt and still hurt. I know, if it was me, i will surely want her to be by my side, even for my engagement ceremony. Do i do correct thing aunty?

From bootcut to skinny.

it shrunk!

cerita 2008
this was the 1st time i bought a very pricey pair of jeans which cost me about RM190.00. it was from Dorothy Perkins. i bought this jeans after 4 weeks i consumed the Herbalife shake. at that time i lost quite inches here and there and this jeans was actually like a present for myself after having succeed cutting off the excess luggage on my body. heh.

it is a boot cut jeans and the size is 10.

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cerita 2009
it's been almost a year now. i left the jeans at home because i hardly wear it. i don't like to wear it because it makes me look fat. (i was fat indeed!). i am the kind of person who will wear one jeans for a very long time. until i found a new suitable and comfy jeans then i will change. i bought myself a new jeans this year from levis. my first ever levis bought with my first ever pay.

heheh.

back to the Dorothy Perkins-bootcut-size 10- itu.

during the raya holiday i managed to send the jeans to a shop and got it alter. i want it to be like a straight leg jeans. but the end result was quite upsetting. it turned out to be a skinny jeans!!! i was sad when i first look at it. but after i wore it, it looks ok la jugak.

this is how it looks on me.
this is the clearer version.
i really need an honest comment. hanna said i look ok in this. but a male friend said i look kind of a geeky-school-girl-who-don't have future in life. lol~

so be frank, do i look fine in this, folks?

footnote: i am salivating over these.