in a big problem.
this is so important to me. because it affects my future. i dont want to fail my paper at the final year here. the problem regards to the courses that im going to take for this sem. im planning (already enrolled) to take math as the elective for this sem. it's an introductory to calculus paper. but the problem is, im not so sure of taking it. to tell the truth, i myself dont feel confident in taking the subject. but i just love math. i love dealing with numbers. i used to be an excellent math student back in school. (dolu2). but that was the story of last 6-7 years. i have left math for years. and to take it again (after the years), i think it's a berani mati decision. so should i take math or not?
my mom supports me to take math. since she knows that i love math so much. (and maybe due to the fact that she and the dad forced me to do tesl. and make me not able to futher my study in courses that deals with numbers. and she felt guilty about it). but then, the question is am i able to perform in math again? am i able to understand or well you know what i mean: am i able to study math again? i have already left math for years. lets me remind you again. the friends not really support my decision. knowing the fact that math subject (for university level) is not that easy. im gonna take a lot of risk if i still on with my decision. so should i take math or not?
im planning to take math since last year. but due to not-so-confident mode that i have, i postponed it. and this is the final sem im here. i wouldnt have this opprtunity to take and study math again after this. that i know i will regret later. obviously i wouldnt be able to pursue my master in math, since i dont have degree in math or maybe math education kan. i wouldnt have the confident as well. so, should i take math or not.
i have other choices for elective. lots of the friends here take educ paper as the elective. but im not interested anymore. since last year. i just followed what the majority took for the electives. i took educ paper which i performed sucks! and linguistics which i perform well but give me lots of headache. plus, linguistic paper is a 300 level paper. that of course will be harder and complicated than previous subject. so, what's other choice do i have? i just want to do a subject that i enjoy. that i love to do it. but i cant do math simply due to my interest je. its so risk to do it. i need to think of my future. my degree. what if i failed for math. at the final semester im here? i wouldnt be able to repeat it because im going back for good at the end of this year. no more redo if i failed. and if i fail, i wouldnt get my degree. big problem tu..so, should i take math or not? ish pening!!!
the friend pun ikut pening looking for the other subject for me. suggesting this one and the other. to replace the math. actually, if i take math, i will be very busy. i realize that i will struggle with it the whole time. because its not an easy subject for a person who have almost zero knowledge of math. and i want it to be that way. i want to be busy all the time. ada keje selalu. i dont want to think of crappy thingys that make my brain and heart jadik kacau! i hate of the fact that i still cant forget the things happens. at least fully recovered. i just hate that my days is still gloomy these days. hmmm.. :(
i myself dont know what is calculus and what i will study in it. people say its difficult. and not an easy subject. moreover, 90% of this course relies on the exam and test. 70% rely solely on the final exam. im gonna be a ded bug la if i failed the exam. what is calculus ek? i cnt expect of how difficult this course will be. i have 2 weeks to decide. i cant even sleep soundly these days. the think will keep on coming up right after i open the eyes after sleep. eeergh! tension!!!
i will attend the first lecture of the course this wed, then later i will decide on pursuing the subject or not. so, should i take math or not? any advise for me?
bestnye jadik kangaroo. xyah pk pasal nk amik course ape kan?mm..
aku stress and blur!!!
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