i have 15 mins b4 i off to sahur.
this thing keeps disturbing in my head. im not sure whether im doing this right or not. im really sorry as this will hurt some parties. yes. lots. but i just need to spill this all out. i mean in writing. i've written lots in my diary lying on my desk right now, but i still want to say this here. i mean outloud!
ok.
who are you to talk about fairness? hey hey. listen here kay. you think that you seems to be in the authority for the WHOLE thing, so you have ALL the power to say this and that to common people (yes, im common. i know). to instruct we to do this and that. even to stop us to do this and that. hello, we are all adults!
if your organisation or you people have already planned ALL the things in good order, i know you have, coz ALL the common people know what they are assigned for, given task for, and hey, we the common people are not stupid or even near to it. lol!
we are doing this together. to enjoy it. to feel what we should feel. its not supposed to be turned out the other way around. gosh. you know how you will feel if you are at my place.
i understand what you feel. (sort of). its not easy to handle all so-called cerdik pandai adults to do this and that. plus with the tak-berhati-perut-punye-orang (tolong sedar sape kamu.tq), its harder for you. but remember, you have plan!
im not talking about myself here indeed. i know im bad as well. i didnt do what im supposed to do, and i didnt follow the time you asked all us to abide for. but, please, give a bit pity (hope you have) to these people who have been working so hard since you know the time, but at the end they didnt receive any credit at all? they have tummy to be filled on like you!
its not that we really WANT the credits or any payment for all the things that we had done. we just want the taste of it. i mean sedikit PULANGAN je. at least we were not there for seciput time only.
really, everybody is tired. exhausted. penat nak mati. and you must be more than that. and you should understand the feel of it. when you work so hard, yes together. penat together. but you get nothing for the pulangan. at least sedikit.
the people who need to (have to) blah early not because of laziness. we just cant! we have no moneys as much as you do. we dont have any other choice to blah late if we stay. we have no other reasons to stay! (well, i really dont intend to stay pun. apa gune assigned task kan). i dont know what's your plan.
dont say that due to these people yg terang2 bersalah, we all get punished as well. sheepish!
but if you think it back, you have already organised this thing in good order. everyone has their own role. i mean this is just my opinion; if you can stick to the tasks that you've assigned and make the people with the tasks to do their work (compulsory to stay), this will not be a hassle for you. and for everyone jugak. and tade la ckp2 belakang watsoever.
think about it back. its just new. long more journey to endure. you will learn from it i guess. hope so.
and you should know that people are talking. in front. at the back. everywhere. not just terang2an je.
once again. i want to apologise if any party hurts for this. i just cnt stop thinking about it. so i spill it out here. maybe im wrong. but im talking the right things. its sheepish of you to act like that that time. and its sheepish of me to just bengkakkan this thing in my own selfish freak.
since you are still new. you are forgivable. serius, my pahala for puasa mesti x byk due to this. ntah ada ke dak pun.
im not trying to make any controversy issue here. its everything about what i feel. if you want to say im a selfish freak, x kesah perasaan org. go on. this is my diary, my blog. its mine. so nobody can stop me from saying anytin i want to say. if you dont like it, you know what to do. you are wise enough. wiser than me i supposed.
for whom who knows what happened, you will know. for those who didnt have any idea at all for what is happening, thank you so much for reading.
im not always be this blunt or kuang-ajo with regards to my own feeling.
mintak maaf skali lagi. sungguh2 ni. nnt raya aku mintak maaf lagi.
lega~sigh* aku sedikit emo. sorry all.
owh. i miss my sahur time. dammit!
this thing keeps disturbing in my head. im not sure whether im doing this right or not. im really sorry as this will hurt some parties. yes. lots. but i just need to spill this all out. i mean in writing. i've written lots in my diary lying on my desk right now, but i still want to say this here. i mean outloud!
ok.
who are you to talk about fairness? hey hey. listen here kay. you think that you seems to be in the authority for the WHOLE thing, so you have ALL the power to say this and that to common people (yes, im common. i know). to instruct we to do this and that. even to stop us to do this and that. hello, we are all adults!
if your organisation or you people have already planned ALL the things in good order, i know you have, coz ALL the common people know what they are assigned for, given task for, and hey, we the common people are not stupid or even near to it. lol!
we are doing this together. to enjoy it. to feel what we should feel. its not supposed to be turned out the other way around. gosh. you know how you will feel if you are at my place.
i understand what you feel. (sort of). its not easy to handle all so-called cerdik pandai adults to do this and that. plus with the tak-berhati-perut-punye-orang (tolong sedar sape kamu.tq), its harder for you. but remember, you have plan!
im not talking about myself here indeed. i know im bad as well. i didnt do what im supposed to do, and i didnt follow the time you asked all us to abide for. but, please, give a bit pity (hope you have) to these people who have been working so hard since you know the time, but at the end they didnt receive any credit at all? they have tummy to be filled on like you!
its not that we really WANT the credits or any payment for all the things that we had done. we just want the taste of it. i mean sedikit PULANGAN je. at least we were not there for seciput time only.
really, everybody is tired. exhausted. penat nak mati. and you must be more than that. and you should understand the feel of it. when you work so hard, yes together. penat together. but you get nothing for the pulangan. at least sedikit.
the people who need to (have to) blah early not because of laziness. we just cant! we have no moneys as much as you do. we dont have any other choice to blah late if we stay. we have no other reasons to stay! (well, i really dont intend to stay pun. apa gune assigned task kan). i dont know what's your plan.
dont say that due to these people yg terang2 bersalah, we all get punished as well. sheepish!
but if you think it back, you have already organised this thing in good order. everyone has their own role. i mean this is just my opinion; if you can stick to the tasks that you've assigned and make the people with the tasks to do their work (compulsory to stay), this will not be a hassle for you. and for everyone jugak. and tade la ckp2 belakang watsoever.
think about it back. its just new. long more journey to endure. you will learn from it i guess. hope so.
and you should know that people are talking. in front. at the back. everywhere. not just terang2an je.
once again. i want to apologise if any party hurts for this. i just cnt stop thinking about it. so i spill it out here. maybe im wrong. but im talking the right things. its sheepish of you to act like that that time. and its sheepish of me to just bengkakkan this thing in my own selfish freak.
since you are still new. you are forgivable. serius, my pahala for puasa mesti x byk due to this. ntah ada ke dak pun.
im not trying to make any controversy issue here. its everything about what i feel. if you want to say im a selfish freak, x kesah perasaan org. go on. this is my diary, my blog. its mine. so nobody can stop me from saying anytin i want to say. if you dont like it, you know what to do. you are wise enough. wiser than me i supposed.
for whom who knows what happened, you will know. for those who didnt have any idea at all for what is happening, thank you so much for reading.
im not always be this blunt or kuang-ajo with regards to my own feeling.
mintak maaf skali lagi. sungguh2 ni. nnt raya aku mintak maaf lagi.
lega~sigh* aku sedikit emo. sorry all.
owh. i miss my sahur time. dammit!
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