It's life.

i will still wait for the real bright sunrise to shine over my life. still. gracefully.
i thought that i wouldn't have to endure the same problem. but again it comes. well. this is what people call life. it has ups and downs which actually made the life as A LIFE. sigh*. it's a sin to sigh* over any bad matters that come to over life, but what else i could do.

i have to forget this for a while. because i really need to concentrate on the only final exam i have this year. ive never been so conscious and anxious about this exam since the last SPM exam. ive been studying and revising like a good girl i am. im so nervous folks. well. i should i think, since the exam marked 70% out of the overall course. its the last ever exam for me here. as the closing of my study here in NZ.

it's so sad to think that it's not long that i'll be staying here anymore. it's not even a month. i want to stay here. as long as i want to. but well, i have to accept it. i have to go back no matter what.
frankly speaking, i have nothing to look forward back in malaysia. well yes, the parent and the family and some buddies. but i don't know. i just don't want to go back there. i mean for good. i just can sense that more bad matters will come to me as i step my foot on malaysia soil later. which obviously i'd try to avoid it. i have had enough for this year. been suffering and suffocating this whole year.

yup. 2007 is not a good year for me. as i remember, its the worse. sigh*. i pray really hard that 2007 wouldnt come to my life again. not ever!

what do feel when you just touch chilies (chopped it) and then unintentionally, you rub your eyes with the same hand. that's how i feel right now. you can try if you want to. but please dont.

footnote: you cant see through the smiles i put on my face. no you cant.