Paranoia.

ive no internet connection in my room anymore. so what have i been doing these days? not moving my butt from the room. every1 who rarely saw me outside have been asking me that question. i didnt go out that much.

its because, ive been watching csi series non-stop. ive finished 2 seasons of vegas's and 1 for miami's. its a new fetish and ive became addicted to it. but somehow, it affected me tho. sad to say i become paranoid myself. haha.

i usually watched these series during the night time till 6 or 8 in the morning. right after i went back home from work. cos i used the day time to sleep. hehe. most of it.

how's the paranoia affected me? it went like this. i just feel safe in my own room. during the night time i mean. while watching this series, and the nature calls came, i will tahan to not go. because i afraid that somebody will brake into my house and attack me in my own house! its so scary ok. i just can feel like there'seyes watching me and just waiting for the right time to attack me and to make it worse, KILL me!!!

but how long i can stop myself from the nature call. i must go. i went to the toilet, quickly finished the business and quickly tip-toed back to the room. its kind of run but i cant run. seems its early in the morning and i dont want to disturb others who are still sleeping. and you know what, the toilet is just next to my room!

penakut sungguh! aiseh~