It's never my problem to think actually.

I've never meant to think about it. But it's just there, lingering around in my head like i have nothing else to think of. i haven't been feeling well this few days. Im not being grumpy no. Since i don't really know how to be one. I talk less yes. I smile yes, with my lips. Friends can tell that i don't really mean my smile. My eyes don't smile. Pandai-pandai je derang ni.

Frankly, i don't have any idea how to describe my feeling right now. Well, i'm never good in describing my feeling in words really.

This time i felt helpless. There's nothing i can do to change the things that i don't want it to be in the current state. It's when i know i have no power to change it, then i become what i am right now. i prefer to be on my own. i stay in my room a lot these days, trying to busy myself; mostly not thinking so much.

i rarely spend time in front of the tv these days. It's wierd really because watching tv is my all-time-favourite hobby. i will, but when im alone at home. Once the housemates are in, i will shut myself in my room. It makes me feel better though. Because i don't think i will speak to anyone of them in the house. So, to spare the guilty feeling of not talking to them, makes me stay in the room all the time.

Perhaps we have tiny problem at home. The misunderstanding. Well, we don't talk that much, so that's maybe where the problem arises. However, that is not the big issue here in my head. It's my personal life.

And i don't know how to describe it here. Since i think it's not really my problem. It's no use to keep whining about something that have nothing to do with you. Im trying to reason with myself now.

No no.

The real reason i don't write 'them' here is because im too ashamed and embarrassed to write it here.

Im going nowhere with this entry. I better stop.

Bye.

Sushi lurve~

Bahan-bahan nya ialah;

sila rujuk di sini.Hasilnya:

Sushi isi ketam + mayonis + cucumber stick.
Sushi tuna pedas + cucumber stick.
Sushi tuna mayonis + cucumber stick.
The almost 200 pieces of sushi.
Happy viewing!!!

Fruitatalatata Triffle.

Bahan-bahan:

sponge cake (i use pandan sponge cake beli di Giant)
jem strawberry
1 tin susu ideal
1 tin air
1/2 tin gula
2 sudu tepung kastard
250g fresh cream
buah dalam tin (boleh guna buah apa2 pun)

Lapisan paling bawah.
- Susun sponge cake yang telah dipotong cube memenuhi lapisan dasar. Sapu atas kek dengan lapisan jem strawberi. Saya blend air yang dalam tin buah buahan dengan jem strawberri supaya jadi cair. Senang nak sapu/ tuang.

Lapisan ke- 2.
- Didih 1 tin susu cair ideal, 1 tin air, 1/2 tin gula pasir. Menggelegak, masuk 2 sudu tepung kastard (yang dibancuh dengan 1/2 cawan air). Sejuk kan. Tuang separuh.

Lapisan ke- 3.
- Putar 250 g fresh cream hingga kembang. Tuang separuh atas lapisan kastard. Tabur/ susun buah.

Lapisan ke- 4.
- Baki kastard.

Lapisan ke- 5.
- Baki fresh cream.
Tabur baki buah on top and chill in the fridge for one night. And ENJOICE~

Full credit to this gorgeous mom!

footnote: Im sorry for the unseemly photo of my fridge. Can you see my tempoyak? hehe.

Cap Ayam.

Another blunder things i did. i accidentally crushed the door grill of my house. i taught it's not that bad, since tak dengar bunyi pun, and it turned out... Adeih la. Silly silly mistake!
The S tertanggal. Drive cepat cepat pegi kedai beli Super glue.
Senang je for the plate number. Yang tang calar tu sakit kepala gak la..
What to do? Sendiri punya salah kan.


Alahai. Orang pakai kete, die nak pakai kete gak.. :p

Ignorant.

Sometimes i'm sick of being kind to people but they never appreciate it. It's ok to make sh*t of me if i do the same things to you.

It's just too much!!!

Sometimes i'm just tired of being me.

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I am browsing the internet. Looking for something to buy.

mmmm...

Love your body will you?

I used to be a passionate user of body lotion. Selepas mandi mesti apply. I used to buy the lotion once a month. But nowadays i think i've been too Lazy to apply the lotion anymore. i even don't quite remember when was the last time i bought a bottle.

hmmm...

i have sensitive skin. And everytime i feel gatal-gatal di badan, i'll start to blame myself why la i'm too lazy to apply the lotion. And will promise to myself to apply it after mandi nanti. But still i don't. Well, typical me.

hmmm...

Come on sd. Rajin-rajinkanlah diri mu.

The Special Eid.

As usual, i woke up on the first Eid (even) with lazy feeling. It's 6.30 in the morning. i sat on my bed thinking "Why do i need to wake up early today.. Can i sleep some more?". Reluctantly, i opened my eyes. Mak's bebelan has been waking me up since 5.30 am. Sometimes i wonder where does she get such energy since she was among the last to sleep last night.

It was like any normal day for me. I woke up, grabbed my tudung and went straight to the sitting room. It's the final check to make sure everything is ready for guest to come later. Nothing special really, except for takbir berkumandang di Radio Kelantan mak sayup-sayup dari dapur.

Wearing new baju kurung also is not a special thing for me. As a teacher, almost every month i buy a new baju kurung. Sometimes it's more than one. This year, we were among the earliest to arrive at the nearby surau. What a shocking fact! After got back from surau, this is the moment (for me) is the special occasion of eid.

We gathered at the sitting room, the whole siblings. And for the record, i have 8 siblings. This year, my sister is celebrating the eid with us, so it's complete set. This is the moment when we queued up to salam and ask forgiveness from my parents especially. This is the moment when tears are easily fall down the cheek. i dont know why, it's just happen. Every year!

We asked forgiveness from each other. Really pouring out what we felt about each other, and we hug tightly.

Yes, it's really a sad but meaningful moment. And for me, although i don't really like the fact that i cried and it ruined my make-up (hehe), but that is always the moment that i wait for each time the eid comes.

That moment makes my eid to be special.

Salam lebaran.

My flight will leave Twu at 1030 tommorrow. Wish all u a good super holiday and Salam lebaran.

Maafkan segala kesilapan saya ye, jika ada terkasar bahasa, terlanjur kata.

Jemput ye datang ke rumah nanti.

:)

I am beyond ecstatic.

i am officially ecstatically beyond ecstatic when i received this parcel yesterday. I didn't expect it to arrive so soon since i just receive the confirmation email that it ahs been posted. It was from here.so, what is inside the parcel??? Lets scroll down.

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Yes yes! Lets scream together mie!

Just released book and i've already own it. Maybe i am the first thousands to own this book maybe. ;)
These are the 2 books that i bought recently. It's time to start hibernating again. :p
Comes together with official receipt.
and this small bag.

Well now everything is just at the tip of fingers kan? Just go here and you can have anything u dream of.

I like... You like???

Sedekah di Bulan Ramadhan.

Hari ini sudah hari ke 14 berpuasa. Alhamdulillah. Belum lagi rongak puasa saya. Tapi dengan tak malu nya jugak mengaku sudah rongak terawikh. Adoi. Ini memang salah sendiri. Mengaku. Biasa lah, walaupun syaitan di ikat, tetapi M huruf besar bermaharajalela di dalam diri bila perut sudah penuh terisi.

Macam semalam, selepas magrib terus terlelap. Terbangun untuk Isya' alhamdulillah. Itupun sebab berpeluh kepanasan. Begini lah situasinya bila tinggal sendiri. Kalau bersama family mesti takde can nak skip terawikh. hihi.

2 malam lepas, saya dan housemate ke terawikh. Dan betapa alhamdulillah rajin sket kami malam itu, membuat keputusan untuk buat 20. Selepas 8, jemaah mula berpusu-pusu keluar meninggalkan masjid. Pastu hujan turun. Kami meneruskan sehingga habis. Masa tu hanya tinggal 6 orang jemaah wanita. Alhamdulillah. Saya antara yang ber-6 itu.

Alkisahnya, keluar dari masjid, cari selipar tak ada. Memang dah rezeki orang yang ambil tu kut nak dapat selipar Jepun Giant. Semalam kan tak pergi masjid. Orang kata kalau selipar hilang, pergi esoknya, Insya-Allah orang yang ambil tu ahntar balik. Dia tak curi, pinjam je. hehe

Takpe lah. Saya sedekah je lah.

Selalunya orang sedekah duit. Tapi kali ni saya dengan rela hati sedekahkan selipar saya itu.

Sesudah 5 hari.

Alhamdulillah.

Today is already the 6th day of fasting. How fast time flies kan? Tengok-tengok nanti dah nak raya pun. ;)

Since the Holy Ramadhan came, belum lagi menjejak kaki ke bazar Ramadhan. Wow wow! But it's not that wow pun because the bazar in Twu is not as goooood as what we have in Semenanjung. I had this one experience last year; i went to bazar and returned home with only a plastic of water. Itu sahaja yang berkenan. Now you can guess what bazar here is like. Perhaps it does'nt suit my taste and my usual expectation of bazar Ramadhan. Perhaps.

So, bulan puasa tahun ini, I decided to cook on my own. So, we (me and the 2 roomates) buy things and cook. And it's soo much fun you know.

These are the homemade menu that we have:

1st day: Ikan masak pedas, udang goreng kunyit + sawi goreng telur.

2nd day: masak lemak ikan, ayam goreng + sayur campur udang.

3rd day: sayur lemak, udang sambal + ayam goreng.
4th day: We went out and have a big makan-makan together with Kak Ummi and Nett. (you may know them)

5th day: sayur lemak (hangatkan balik), ikan kukus goreng, sambal pedas bilis, ikan sardin, telur dadar + timun cicah tempoyak.
the 5th day lah satu2 nya hari kami ber-3 makan nasi bertambah-tambah. Penangan tempoyak tu... Fuhhh, sedap giler k! Lauk simple-simple je. Hopefully can give ideas for all of you to cook. Kueh nya adalah popia. Pun homemade. ;)
And today, tak tahu lagi mahu masak apa. Tapi dah lama berangan mahu buat kerabu sotong. Kene cari resepi dulu lah. Kepada sesiapa yang teringin mahu buat tempoyak, buleh tanya ye. Nanti saya bagitahu. Simple - simple aje.


Sorry for the lack of photo for the 1st two days. Sangat eager mahu bukak puasa lol~

Poso dok?

Semalam call rumah di negeri yang akan mengalami musim tengkujuh di bulan Disember nanti. Sempat bercakap dengan little woman at home. Umur nya sekarang 7 tahun. Bersamaan darjah 1. Call time is 4.30 pm. Berikut adalah perbualan kami:

Me: Adik poso dok?
Her: Poso lagi ni.
Me: Bagus adik ni.. Pukul brapo nk bukak poso?
Her: Kejap lagi lah. Sama lah ngan Kakda. Kakda buka jam brapo?
Me: 6.24. Best bukak awal dik. Sungguh pun. (provoke)
Her: Tak boleh. Mak cakap, kalu bukak poso awal berkawan ngn Saitan. Kak da jgn lah bukak awal.

Adoi doi.. Senyap terus 'Me'.

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak.

Salam ramadhan kepada semua umat muslimin semua. Semoga ramadhan kali ini lebih baik dari yang sebelumnya.

Selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa semua!

Jangan lupa terawikh ok.

*pardon me for the lack of entries. Been having writer's block these days.

It is new and exciting!

Recently i have grown some exciting yet sin' hobbies.

I am addicted to online shopping. Well you can't blame me. The items are all eye-catching and the price is very reasonable.

As for today i have bought 5 long blouses, 1 long dress and 2 handbags. Owh, i love every bits of it. You know, especially the adrenalline, the eagerness to know whether the items you want is still available or not. It is crazy kan?

Yesterday i bought myself a new high tech gadgets. E71. Well sekarang sy dpt bersiaran langsung di mana-mana.

And FYI, sy sekarang bersiaran langsung dari kelas! :p

Kan sy cakap hobi yang exciting tetapi berdosa haha.

I love my new hobbies.

Current mode.

Online shopping addict.

.period.

Knowing me.

Kenali peribadi berdasarkan tarikh kelahiran - Jun. I got this from Majalah Suri. (Those in brackets are my responses).

1. Mempunyai sikap yang positif, berfikiran jauh dan berwawasan. (Pheewit!)

2. Lemah-lembut. (Alahai.. So not me :p)

3. Mudah berubah sikap, perangai (idea dan mood), moody dan ada angin. (Angin apa ye? X paham plak..)

4. Otaknya cerdas dan aktif, terlalu banyak idea di kepala dan suka berangan-angan. ( Part yang berangan-angan tu je tak setuju. hihi.)

5. Bersikap sensitif. (Macam tak sangat pon.)

6. Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera, suka bertangguh-tangguh. (Proscractination is my middle name. lol. )

7. Bersikap terlalu memilih kerana mahukan yang terbaik. Jika hendakkan sesuatu barang mesti yang berjenama dan cerewet. (erk?)

8. Cepat marah dan cepat sejuk. (Macam icecream. Enak di makan.)

9. Suka buat lawak dan bergurau. (Ye la tu.)

10. Mudah berkawan dan pandai berkawan. (i quote from my dad, "Kakda ni buang kat padang pasir pun bleh idup.. " owh owh.)

11. Orangnya sangat tertib. (The only things that i do in tertib way is wudhu' and solat. haha.)

12. Pandai mempamerkan sikap, mudah kecil hati. (emmmm..)

13. Suka berkemas dan cepat bosan. (I cant stand orang pengotor and i love to change the color and position of my room's furniture. Yes. It's proved!)

14. Lambat sembuh apabila terluka hati. (Jack pot)

15. Kedegilan yang tak terkawal. (lalalalala~)

16. Mudah dihidapi selsema. (owh tidak betul sama sekali.)

You judge me folks and Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke-25 buat saya!!!

Your highness,

Lemayan~^~

The Journey to Muar.

Gathering in school before leaving.
Allah bless us.
At the airport. LCCT yes. Low cost airline.
The football team before we headed to separate ways. They went to Batu Pahat. We off to Muar.
List of schools that were competing.
The first match in the first round that doomed us. It was a tough fight i must say.
Tak dapat bawa balik cup, snap picture in a cup pun jadi lah. :p
One of the endless training.
After the first loss. They did the best, they deserved the treat.

It was not our luck this time.

Marathon.

Anybody care to join?

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Cuti dah start since jumaat lepas (28th May). The holiday is going to be a long 3 weeks holiday. Ramai kawan-kawan semenanjung dah bertolak pulang seawal 27 hb malam. Memang melampau kan. :p

My ticket is supposed to be on the 29th Morning. Supposedly i've reached KL yesterday's afternoon, but i am still stuck here in Twu. I'll only be leaving this state on thursday heading off to Muar to chaperone my students for the debate national level competition seperti yang saya pernah gembar-gemburkan in the previous posts lah.

Berkobar-kobar? Yes. Sangat-sangat. Tak sabar to get this thing over with actually.

Esok we'll start the intensive-care-unit training till Wednesday from 8am to 4 pm. It is marathon and a hard work. Yes, if you want to repeat the last year's victory. We were the 2009's national champion. And frankly speaking it was a preasurre to maintain the victory tho.

Memang mati lah semua nanti. Fingers cross that i will not get my 2nd hush-hush push-push in emergency room anymore. Kidding.

So start esok dah tak boleh main-main lagi. Tapi malam ni masih buleh watch DH marathon. Season 1 here i go!!

Btw in fact i planned to buy the DH cds in KL when i go there nanti. Tapi rupanya ada jugak bah di Twu ni. Semalam saya ke Easter Plaza dan surprisedly ada dijual di sana. Kilik-kilik je melompat-lompat kesukaan di dalam kedai. hihihi. Dah tawar-menawar harganya i think i got a reasonable price for it. Them actually since i bought two.

(DH)Desperate Housewife Season 1-5 complete - RM70
(PB) Pecah Penjara Season 1-4 complete - RM55

Saya sukeeee!