Away.

i had to go for a three days two nights course last week in Subang. If you are a mother, living on your own without any family members around, you will know how i felt the first time i heard the news. At that time, Muizz was the only vital person that i can think of.

After so much discussion with the husband, i decided to go for the course. My husband's school has limited phone connection, so we were basically texting each other to discuss. I have to decide in quick, because apparently i will board the flight the next day and the office needs to book the flight tics for me. I was overwhelm at that time- of leaving Muizz with strangers or go on with the task assigned.

The whole time i was texting with my husband, his only concern was only Muizz. Ive never been apart from him since he was born. He slept with me and only me since then. Can he sleep with other people- since i realizes that my husband was not confident to take care of Muizz on his own.

I called the babysitter and expectedly, she said 'Okay!'. Then im relieved.

What i was expecting from my husband as we were texting was ' Can someone else replace me?'. But he never asked that question. Perhaps he knew how excited i was to get to go for a course because im never been in one since ive started working. He is so understanding that im so glad that i have him as my husband. 

Then off i went for the course. And on that first day, i kept calling and texting the babysitter to ask about Muizz well-being till i reckoned she was rimas with me. Haha. But she is a good girl i tell you because of her patience to deal with a freak-out-left her son with stranger- for 3 days mummy.

 Before i left him for 3 days.

In short, the 3 days im away was in a way a good thing for both of us. Muizz was behaving well the whole time im not with him. Sleeping at night also was not a problem. From that i realized that my boy perhaps someone who can adjust with surrounding. He knew that mummy was not around, so he bevahed like an angle.

As for me, i got 2 nights off without disturbance from little hands as well as big hands (haha), but sadly, i wasn't sleeping so well either. I kept waking up those 2 nights, thinking how my baby is doing.  And once i touched down in KK, the only things im eager to is meeting my baby boy.

Im glad that we both survived this separation in a good way.

What a good surprise to meet a familiar face in that course and surprise or not, we were roomate!!!

Milestones.

Browsing through the photos of Muizz, makes me realize that he is growing so fast. In another week, he will be 9 months! And by now, i realize he can do many things which im really amazed of. He is like a small human but trying to be a big boy he is not. 

Some random things that he loves to do nowadays;-

• Loves loves his bath time. Cant see mummy open the toilet door he will get agitated. Padahal im just performing my ablutions for prayers. And once he is inside the toilet, mandi, bringing him out from the bathroom is a HUGE challenge. He will scream his lungs out that sometimes me and husband have to let him in the bathroom for another minutes.
• When he sees something that he can grab to stand on his two feet, he will. Eventhough its only a piece of towel hanging from a hanger. -_____-
• He understands feelings i guess. He knows when i raise my voice to him that means 'Mummy is angry'. haha. Then he will cry.
• Cant let his eyes out of mummy. If im around in the house.
• Loves listening to azan. and the TV3 music tagline. 
• Suka cubit and bite especially when he kinds of bored at home.
• Cant see mummy wears tudung, because he knows that means mummy is going somewhere- leaving him. Then he will cry.
• He shook, banged, threw and put in his mouth the remote control at home. We have to buy the new one after they are all broken.

Those are what i can recall for now. Having to go through all of these with only me and my husband with him, im so proud of myself and praying every single day that we will be able to wade through any obstacles as we only have each other to hang on to. 

He was so bored in the car that he tried to bite me with his two teeth. Haha.

A new start.

We've moved in to the new house after the CNY break and so far im so happy with the new place. It is so huge (for the 3 of us), babyfriendly and clean! Thats the most important things as for me before i enter a new house. It is a small taman, so the traffic is not like the previous taman. The taman have only two row of houses and they are facing each other with no road at the end of the alley. So i guess there should be no strangers car unless for only the tenants.

I can see that my boys are also very comfortable with the house.

Muizz got to crawl happily and when we put him into the walker, he'll slide joyfully exploring one room to the other. And i tell you, my boy is so good manouvering his own car, going in and out from the room doors without slamming into one. Im a proud mummy. heee..

As for my husband, he got a full room to put his things as he called it 'Abi's place'. He has sorted out the room yesterday and i think it looks nice. Everything was out of their boxes and placed on the tables that we recently bought. Now his gadgets are safe  and sound. ;)

In terms of new purchase for the house, we've only bought two 4-foot size folding tables and a cabinett with doors. i m happy with the cabinett as now i have place to put all my tupperware! What we plan to buy after this is another folding table for the kitchen, two bamboo mats, a rechargable lamp for blackout. We had 20 minutes blackout last night and Muizz was crying so loud that i think the whole neighbourhood can hear har har.

Well i guess pictures can tell more about our new home. Here are some photos from my ig.

The 298 at Taman Panglima. My first home with husband. Our precious tiny abode where i experienced bittersweet memories and life lessons which i may not get elsewhere. You are forever will have a special place in my heart.

May Allah ease our life journey in the new place and as for the better, we pray that the next move we have is to peninsular, hopefully by the end of this year. Lets pray together. ;)

Shawl lover.

If you are shawl lovers, you will definitely know or perhaps have bought some stuff here. I love the material they use. Soft silky, tidak jarang and suitable for our climate.

1) Sugarscarf

2) Shawlbyvsnow

These 2 owners are actually sisters and im impressed how they are able to start business and make money at the young age. And one of them is still studying. They are just inspirations. 

i've got myself some of the Ayami s and Essential scarf from them. They are just super comfy and super long. It depends on how you belit them. As for me i love it because of the materials, the colors available and how i can do it by covering the chest.  Below are colors of Essential scarf you can choose. As for me they are really essential. =)

These are 2 picas from my instagram that i posted recently.

So girls, go figure and enjoy shopping!

Footnote: im doing this for the sake of sharing what i love.

Of moving house.

Last year when my family came here for a visit, i realized how small our house is actually. It was not comfortable i know but knowing my family they are just dont bother. We're just so close with each other that we didnt mind bumping each other on the way to the toilet, bumping each other's butts in the kitchen (my kitchen only fits one adult); they even cant strech hands so much, afraid that it will poke somebody's head har har har. 

The good things about the house, firstly is the price. I can say it is the cheapest house rent in that taman which is rm450 a month. Secondly is the tuan rumah. They were the kindest landlord we ever knew. Last year's raya they invited us to their house for a feast. We were so berat hati that we gave excuse ' we dont know their house and we dont really know roads and places here'. Surprisedly, the wife insisted and said ' its ok, we'll come here to pick you up and show the way'. When we arrived at their house, then we realized we are the only guest that day. And they cooked many raya food for us. -____-. Im touched. 

After my family returned home, my husband and i went ronda-ronda around Beaufort to find another house to rent. A bigger house. But we're still berat hati because we dont know how to tell the landlord. We were not serious that time and we met no avalaible house. 

Yesterday, when i arrived home from school in the evening, my husband said that the landlord called him and advised us to find for a new house because they want to renovate the house for their daughter. But, she didnt really push us about this and told us to take our time to find a new house.Hmmm. It was shocking but on the other hand i felt relief because we finally are serious to find another house, a bigger house. =)

It was already late, but because i cant control my excitement to find another house, after praying asar, off we went ronda-ronda around Beaufort. It was 5.15pm when we left home, and we've got less that 1 hour before maghrib and day becomes night.

There are 2 new tamans here that we aimed for. There was no rent house advertisement at Taman Eramas, double-storey house. Only houses for sale and only few tenants moved in there. So, we rushed off to the second taman which we dont know what is the name. The house is modern, sleek dohble-storey house. A very beautiful house for me. The roof is flat. I mean they do not use roof yang macam rumah biasa. 

We found a house written 'For rent call 016- xxx'. We called the number quickly to ask about the condition, the water and electricity status as well as negotiate the price. The person said the rent is rm1200  month. Oh my. I requested for rm900 and he said he will think about it. Perhaps we can see the house on wednesday or thursday, because the owner lives in KK. That is one choice. 

Then we drove off to the nearby taman, which is Taman Foh Sang. The houses there is single-storey, much bigger than our current house and i knew that the houses are still knew. They were first resided in 2011. As we drove through we can see few houses that are still empty. Then, i knew this is maybe our luck. I asked my husband to stop tepi jalan to ask the lady who was cleaning her rubbish bin in front of her house. 

Surprise surprise she said the house in front of her house will be empty in february. The tenant will move out to another taman. Yeay!!! So we got the phone number of the owner and terus called. When i told the owner that we are both teahers, he immediately said 'i'll give you the house key after the tenant move ok'. The best thing of being teachers. People have trust on you. 

So now we have two options.

 It was an easy evening for us. Alhamdulillah. Allah knows the best and he listens to what our heart want. Then, after we arrived home, our landlord called saying that we perhaps dont need to move house because she was thinking of buying new house for her daughter. We can stay at that house. 

Hmmm now three options. 

But ive made my mind that i want to move to a bigger house. We dont know how many years still we will stay here because every time we applied we got rejected. And for our comfort and perhaps our family will come to visit us, so we better move out from the current house. We'll make our decision after we look through both houses.

 im so excited!!

My timetable for the 1st 6 months.

It's the first day of school today for 2013.

So i've received the timetable for this semester and guess what, just as what i expected; i'll be teaching 2 subjects,  English and Moral. 2 hours for English and another 2 hours for Pendidikan Moral. Well, if you are good at Math you'll for sure realize i'll be teaching 4 hours a week!

 

Bosannya!

But who am i to complain. Friends and family kept telling me to enjoy this time because it's really rare for teachers to have this kind of timetable. Usually teachers complain that they have busy timetable until they have no time to rest, eat etc. On the other hand i'll have the whole week to goyang kaki (?).

Im just not used to it that's why im applying for transfer. Hope that my wish is granted this year.

Muizz's baby sitter.

Its 2013!

Seems like its another year we'll stay in Sabah and if you ask me what is my resolution this year my answer will be " I hope 2013 will be the last here".

When i knew last year that our transfer applications have been rejected (yet again), i was able to soothe myself because im lucky to have my family here with me- the husband and my son. I have friends at school who were also failed to get the transfer, their husbands and kids are away in peninsular. That's really stress i know. I can't imagine my life without my husband and Muizz.

Im also very lucky to have a lovely and motherly babysitter for Muizz. She's a wife for one of the teachers and a Kelantanese. Furthermore, she loves Muizz so much and i can see that. We always have a good chat everytime i dropped and fetched Muizz at her house. I feel very easy with her. She's like a family that i don't have here.

Now comes a new year, her husband got transferred to Port Dickson! He just got the confirmation yesterday, as in 2 jan.

My heart dropped as i heard the news. Im not yet ready for this. Ive been doing some thinking over this matter because his wife told me that the husband applied for transfer and they also do the rayuan. What if, what if... But im not really worried since pertukaran in BPTV is kind of dibekukan.

But he got the transfer and i'll be left nanny-less in weeks time. At the taman that i live we have a nursery. Im praying hard they will still have one place for Muizz. Im so concern how will Muizz reacts at the new place with new surrounding and strangers. They have many babies and toddlers to cater on. Having said that, how will their attention will be for Muizz. He's such a clingy and crying baby that im worried how will the pengasuh handle my son when he cries.  He's now 6 months and he already recognizes people. He cries really loud with people he doesn't recognize. This happened many times at MIL house recently.

What if there's no more places at the nursery? Where will i send Muizz i have no idea at all.

Im so crashed.

I know Allah give me this challenge for me to stand on my own, find the best solution and remember Allah can make anything happen just as He wants it. Kun fayakun right. And for me, La Tahzan as Allah with people who have patience. Ya Allah please ease my way and pray hard Muizz will behave like a good boy whereever he will be sent to later on. Amin.

Been waiting for next week.

Ive been waiting for 8th dec since forever. The day that we' ll finally flying hometown. Being at work while others are already enjoying their holiday is not fun.

Husband pun dah penat dengar my ramblings about 'still working while we should have gone back' almost everyday.

Basically, every school day i go to work not to work. Because we have no classes anymore. Students are having 2nd semester's examination. During their free day, they will not be at school. Semua balik kampung- buat cuti sendiri. So i dont know what's the point of us, the cikgus go to school. Hmmm.

8th Dec also marks the 2 years i got to know my husband. The day he first called me and we set plan to meet. We kamikazed decided to get married after the first meeting And less than 6 months after, i'm a wife to him. Unpredictable really when you've found the one. Now, we have a charming little boy together and i cant imagine my life without my two boys everyday.

My little boy will turn 6mo on the same date as well. It means, its time for solid! Im really excited and i know Muizz also hype about this. We can clearly see nowadays he loves to watch us eating which sometimes rasa kesian sgt. Geram je mau suap jugak.  Now im collecting all the infos and recipes of what can i feed him once the time comes.

My siblings and in laws are all counting days to meet my little ones which is not so little i think. During the last 5 mo checkup his weight is 8.7 kg and 67.5 cm tall. The nurse said he's a tall baby. I wonder where he got the gene from.

Till then. Salam.

Posing.

When he tried his best to piss me off. Good job boy. -____-

The getaway.

We'll spend a night here tonight. 

My baby is already sleeping and now i can write :). Husband went out with my brother for a late-night movie. The initial plan is i go with them but Muizz seems a bit upset after a long day on the road, been here and there shopping and sight seeing, so better that i stay.

My parent with three of my siblings are here for four days. And today we drove here and stay a night. Will go back Beaufort tomorrow. Muizz is very happy and excited with my family around. Before this senyap je rumah, bila dah ramai and riuh suka sangat lah die. 

Do i look happy, because i do!

A good news after bad news.

My school holiday will start on the 8th of December. That's the recent news which is good because before this the holiday is a week after the date before.

I hope its finalized now because we have bought the tickets home. At least three great weeks at home compared to two. 

Of raya post.

Im playing spider solitaire on my laptop since i thumbed in this morning. And i've never won once. sigh.

The staffroom is now already quite. You may heard the sound of pin dropped i think. What's left now is me with another few colleagues. Everyone is now boarding the plane heading hometown for raya. Instead, there are some of them who left as early as yesterday. Hmmm.

The school is now really quite. Most of the students are also heading home, taking their own long leave. Some of them have already left the hostel last weekend since the water-crisis that we have. Basically we always have water-crisis here. It always always happened. But we never complained like some people do on the news- the television. 

I dont understand why some people make it such a huge matter because water crisis is happening everywhere for god sake. For me, they are really trying hard to condemn the current ruler; so hard. I rarely watch news on tv these days because they are telling and reporting the same things over and over again. Hello. We have brains to think about it. We dont need frequent repetition of what's good and bad in certain matters.

Obviously we got your point.

Can we move on to the more prominent news such as crimes and world issue. Here, we have the water-crisis since years ago! Tak pernah masuk tibi pun?

Back to my story. Actually im so bored and playing game is not my thing. All my friends are and already heading hometown and im still here. 

-_____-

This year for the second time im celebrating Aidiladha with my small family. The three of us. I wish we can go home and celebrate with the whole family but my husband refused to due to several reasons.

No. 1: It was a short holiday and we dont want to drag our baby on 4 different planes in 4 days worrying that it will make him tired etc.

No 2: We shouldn't add more cuti on our yearly report since if we go back we might need to apply for MC's  because husband's cousin is getting married. Kalau dah balik, of course we have to attend the wedding right.

So, we are staying and celebrating with whoever are here. Which i think quite a few. I planned to cook my mum's delish nasi minyak like i did last year but this year with chicken curry. Wish it will turn out good. Yesterday i bought fresh squids and today im going to grill it and do percik. And do some air asam to dip. Yummy. I may fetch Muizz earlier this afternoon.

I miss him already but thumbed out time is 4 pm. How now brown cow?

Im here wishing a prosperous, delightful and enjoyable raya for everyone who is celebrating with family and friends. Be good and careful on road. For those who do qurban, hats off on you wishing that your qurban will be your ride to jannah in hereafter. Lets pray that our friends who are now in Makkah performing hajj- praying that their hajj will be accepted and no bad accidents will occur overthere.

I cant wait for the next Thurdays because my family is coming here. Hurrah!

Milestones.

Finally on his own. Good job baby. I know it's little bit late but you've done it. 

We are so proud of you.

Muizz will be 5 months in another 3 weeks. Since he reached 3 months, we've been waiting for him to roll over on his own. He has no problem lying on his tummy when we put him- he will fly happily. However, he's not doing it own his own.

Being newbies in parenting, this somehow worries me. Call mak and she said he's supposed to be already. That, worries me more. But i calm myself by saying Muizz is quite big in size, so perhaps its a bit heavy for him to roll over his own body. 

And it happened last saturday evening after i bath him. I was super-excited that i made him do over and over  again.

Hehe. Poor my little boy kene buli ngan mummy.

Favourite spot.

He can sit on me like this all-day-long. 

My clingy little boy.

Mmm sedap nya drumstick mummy.

:p

Swollen gums.

Its started on Friday that i felt the pain. I cant open my mouth widely but i just ignore it. Its somehow normal to me since i've been experiencing this quite sometimes. Especially when i just woke up from sleep and don't really open mouth to speak. The muscle around mouth will froze (?). That happens to me i don't know you.

So i ignored the pain.

Waking up the next day, the pain got extreme. Then i realized i've swelling gum and pain around my bottom right wisdom tooth. The right side of my jaw hurts. Feel like my glands are swollen and tender. This happened to me once before. When i went to see the dentist she said that i didn't brush properly. So there was leftover bacteria/ fungus that made the gums to swell and increase in size. It was due to my wisdom tooth which is not fully come-out.

The dentist said that either i go for a minor surgery to remove the tooth or tahan the pain which can happen berkali-kali. Hearing the word surgery really scared me! So i go for second option. Until it happened again last friday.

Husband pujuk me to go to dentist but i refused saying that, " Nanti-nanti ok la ni..."

It already 4th day and im still suffering with the pain. I had trouble eating, speaking, laughing and sleeping throughout the weekend. Nak telan air liur pun seksa.

-____-

I came to school this morning my friends said my face macam swollen. Hmmph. And today finally im going to see the dentist. Pray that she will not force me to go for the surgery!

Moments.

Instagram, Photobook and whatnot are popular nowadays to share moments. Im not an Iphone user or Blackberry user. Husband is sweet-talking me asking me to take his Iphone so that he can buy the new Iphone 5 that is coming soon. My answer is no. Im just so comfortable using my nokia phone. 

And i have no problem of sharing wonderful moments even with my so-lame-outdated phone. Im wishing so hard that the phone will not broke down because its difficult to find that kind of phone these days. Semua pun touch screen and i dont like touch screen; susah mau texting while driving. lol.

Here im sharing some recent photos on my phone. 

Last week we celebrated husband's birthday with this surprised cake. He loved it but mummy loves it more. I have 3 big slices. Oh my. The best oreo cheesecake ever. Ever!!! Ordered from one of the teachers at school. Her choc moist is better. Have never had the choc moist that 'moist' like she did before. Hers the best lah.

 Sleeping like a big-boss, after having 3 big slices of oreo cheesecake that night. hehe.

 Halfway halfway- hehe. Shaving my boy's hair on friday. My school was on holiday last friday after sports day the day before. Completed after 2 sessions.

 Almost there sayang- a few minutes before being in lalaland. ;)

 Clapping your hands while shaking booties in front of him and singing twinkle twinkle little stars; the result is wide smile and finally big laugh. I love him!!

Happy 4 months old big boy. Mummy and abi love you lots lots lots. 

Now you know the famous model of my phone and camera these days. Too cute. Geram!

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Just to share this with fellow SPM teachers.

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He provides exam questions and answers from all states. Brilliant works. 

Much thanks for the blog owner.

The worries that now gone.

Why we worry so much about bringing Muizz jalan-jalan is because he sleeps in the cradle. When he was born, i set in mind that i will Not put him in the cradle to sleep. However, Muizz was a cranky little baby and put him into sleep was the most challenging part. He will only sleep in the cradle and only after he cried his lungs out.

There was once he cried non-stop for almost 2 hours. At that time i was alone at home, all the family members went to terawikh. Just imagine how stressed i was that time. This situation happened not only once!

Once we moved here, he became calmer. And nowadays we trained him to sleep lying down on the mattress. After i fed him, tepuk-tepuk and lying with him while watching tv, he will fall asleep. It was easy. Perhaps because it was really quiet at the home. He also do he same at the babysitter's house. The nanny said he will doze off on the mattress after he's fully fed.

 Inside the cradle. He was having high fever at this time.

On the mattress.

When i told my mum about this, she was really surprised. Alhamdulillah, his change is for the better. Well, babies are brilliantly clever you know. You just have to train him and he will be like what you want him to be.   Mummy prays that Muizz will grow up to be a good and soleh son. Mummy loves you so much son!

Last Resort.

Another new reason for me to be glued to the tv. What with the new season of The Voice and Amazing Race. Owh not to forget Adam dan Hawa on 134 channel ;).

Awesome!

Do you know there's a sightless contestant on the Masterchef US 3 and she's still surviving after 3 rounds of elimination. She must be a hell of a cook isnt she.

I do bad today.

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