It's true.

indeed it's true when you always think about the pain in your life, the pain will control you. you will feel more pain and tend to forget the brighter things (nikmat) that you have.

i think so much sometimes. i always tried to control my thinking to not think of the pain, and only certain times i can forget it. due to that im not able to sleep at night. i shouldn't have thought i know. the sharp pain on the chest, you feel like something clenching your heart, it's very heavy. and i sometimes cried to sleep.

think positive. that's what i always said to myself. jgn bersangka buruk, jgn fikir yang bukan2. ada hikmah di sebalik semua yang berlaku. Allah masih sayang kan aku to bring back to His path because i've been to obsessed with the world matter.

i qoute this from jaime's blog:

"jika seseorang dapat memahami dan menghayati takdir Allah SWT untuknya, maka dia akan merasa sabar dan lapang dada dalam menjalani kesulitan hidup, juga tidak bersedih dan kecewa ketika ditimpa musibah. lebih dari itu dia akan merasakan besarnya kasih sayang Allah SWT kepadanya, juga bergembira dengan pahala besar yang akan diterimanya kelak."

that is exactly what i'm trying to be. sabar dan lapang dada. i maybe stronger today and i know i need a lot more motivations to stay up and awake.

tq so much for jaime. it's such a good and beautiful words you put there. and fyi, aku baca sume entry dalam blog mu since 2010.

and now im enjoying a big bowl of cornflakes and milk in the evening. reminding me of beautiful times whan i was in Nz few years back. ;)